Compliance is not deadening

I’ve been on meds  for over a year and I had no clue life could be this easy. My energy is not tied up in managing my erratic moods and I now have the focus to make actual progress. I have a new job, and for the past 6 months I have been a loving, attentive and level headed mama. I have developed a pretty good relationship with my psychiatrist. I actually trust her input. This is the most consistently happy I’ve been since high school. And yes, this stasis was unachievable for me without medication. For the past six years I have struggled with my diagnosis and struggled with taking my prescribed medication consistently. And the past six years I struggled with self medicating, alcoholism, insomnia, an overdose, and a slew of hospitilizations. I am much relieved to be doing entirely better. My mindset has even changed. I could care less about my diagnosis, I view it as having undesirable symptoms, symptoms that will prevent me from being clear-headed and present for my son. I am becoming more responsible and improving myself without the built in sabatoging effect of medical non compliance. Thank you for following my journey through a mental health diagnosis and my struggle to find peace. I have found peace  in family life and bettering our tomorrow. I hope to help others who struggle and be an example of what life can be if you don’t give up at your rock bottom.